because being alone is a lot for two people to have in common

i am twenty seven years old and have never had a one night stand although i have been sorely tempted as of late but i dont think it would solve anything and just the thought of it makes me feel like i'm cheating on the one who i can't reach. do i fool myself to believe that he would feel the same, no, but that may well be the cynicism speaking up again although then again maybe not because i wouldn't consider it cheating if he were to be with someone else because he's so far away which really makes me wonder about my own thought processes or at least my self respect but i don't really think of it as lack of self respect because somehow he still makes me feel like i'm the most important creature ever placed on this earth and that's a real boost did i ever tell you about the time he broke up with his girlfriend because i showed up on his doorstep after having fallen off the face of the earth for four years so i'll never be able to have a one night stand healing or hurtful regardless and i will never seek out that little bit in common to share with a stranger so i will live inside of my dreams once again and they will show me sandy shores and warmer climes that i have never touched and but always will miss where are you drummer boy?